Waiting for So Long, What have I become?

So no blog posts for a while
not much to say.
haven't done much
need to move on from High School
he's not interested
i know that
and it's stupid
and lame
and maybe even hurting me

also need to move on from the other
he has just been presenting me with mixed messages
that my brain can no longer handle
and i'm tired
i'm bored
i'm lonely
so i'm no longer trying

cocktails with the B Girls tonight
excited
church with the Em Factor tomorrow
should be fun
especially if i meet Sushi ;)
training tomorrow too
i WILL go
i need to go
it keeps me sane

been going to uni
big debate in class
I was practically the devil's advocate
all for the criminal
all against the system
even though the crim was a freak
talking about the fritzl case to be honest
i was all about mitigating factors that it's likely noone thinks about
i wasn't excusing case
but trying to get others to think about other factors
and to not just label him a freak
mmm... was fun
lecturer was a little thrown
especially since i am the only 1st year student in the class
and i was talking more, arguing more, and actually had some valid points.
really hoping to do really well this semester
well i'm trying... so good start

but yeah
other than uni
which has started off well

i'm lonley
i'm sad
but i'm fighting
i'm reading
i'm seeing what has caused the holes
the breakages
i don't know how to fix them yet
but i know why they are there
and thats step one...
:)