Goodbye

bought a diary today

lockable

private

signing out of here

for good. 

For my readers

if you want to read more

email me

facebook me

and ill let ya know how im going

otherwise

im out

gone

disappeared

blogger - we had a good run

but maybe its time for me to keep my private life private

and spill all my beans into my diary

just for my eyes only. 

xx

Ask DNA

Living in Doncaster for 3 weeks (ish)

Maybe go spend sometime in Preston, maybe a week out of the 3.

Break from the family.

Stress me out a little they do

but hey

it's DNA

we're all the same

crazy

a little self centred

exciteable

Sometimes I just need the peace of an empty house.

a sleeping puppy

a bit of music

and a good, long, hot shower.

followed by tea.

May even get some study done tonight before bed

feeling a little relaxed

although concerned about the 40min trek to work.

compared to the usual 30 mins

especially since I'm usually late when I only need to travel 30...

haha

Feeling pretty good

and relaxed

maybe even happy.

fun friends times

glad im slowly rebuilding my social life, again. :D

x

One Minute

I just need to stop

for one minute

to enjoy my surrounds

but there is no time

deadlines

assignments

competitions

dates

love

"change nothing

the future is in

close the door. 

wear a name

be the same

take some more."

I don't want to change anymore

i just want to be me

and not need to change

find a niche

somewhere where bianca as bianca is accepted

where people don't need me to change. 

i'm glad my boyfriend loves me for me

or i would be stuck at square one. 

im just tired. 

again

Beautiful Place

I am so happy

just feeling really positive

found my camera

getting through my assignments

house hunting

found so many places that look amazing

Rebel and I should be well set

Affordable

central

comfortable

private.

not a share home.

feeling confident for nationals

self defence

jitae.

awesome

feeling comfortable in my relationship

a few things bother me

but nothing worth dwelling over

i love him

he loves me

what more can one ask for?

black tea

malteasers

smiles

and uni work

my night is complete.

xx

smiles all round.

Welcome to the Jungle

I'm not even sure what i am going to write here.

Everything just seems a little overwhelming lately.

heaps of assignments due

overwhelmed with uni

work

im rather unwell

antibiotics

trying to avoid antibiotics cos they arent that good for you

at all.

and then my relationship

dont worry

i wont change it for the world!

I love my boyfriend

more than i have ever loved anyone

and he brings me such happiness

but now it's settling

and we're starting to be a comfortable couple

and this scares me

should it scare me?

that we just chill and watch movies

or go out to parties

but that we don't run around crazy on magical budget dates

or we don't do things on a whim

or that we're just comfortable

the honey moon excitement period worn off

no more exciting randomness.

i miss it

and it scares me that it's gone

it's a good thing though

i've never gotten to this stage in a relationship

a happy, content and comfortable relationship

where we communicate

and speak about the future

and enjoy one another

but where has the magic gone?

I think i should speak to him

and bring it back

budget dates

running under sprinklers

eating cake in the dark

summers coming back

along with the warmth

and long holidays

where we can stay up all night eating

and run under sprinklers

and spend nights at the beach.

Can you have both?

exciting

and

comfortable?

if not; i'd choose comfortable.

any day

cos i don't want to lose what i have.

peace x

Drowning in Denial

I suppose I can't deal with these ups and downs

one min im laughing and enjoying life

the next i just want to bury my head in the sand

so behind in uni

losing weight again

missing my bf

just wanting to defer uni

go away

run far away

and enjoy a break

but ill soldier through

live it tough

finish this degree

and then run

get a job in another state

where i have to start fresh

hopefully i wont lose the one i love

hopefully we can run off together

both chasing careers

but together

hopefully i can always be with him

happy

in his arms

and safe.

but for now.

back to uni

no more drawing

and study

cos there is no time for dreams

reality is too close

i feel better for writing.

xx

The Best is Yet to Come

At uni

Spending quality time with Miss S.

It's been a while since we chilled at uni.

Been a while since I laughed as much as last night

I had so much fun

If I strive to smile and laugh anywhere near to that every day

My future is looking bright..

As said by Stacey Kent: "The Best is Yet to Come"

xx