100 Years

So

Wilfred was stolen.

Thats car number two in 2 months.

Trust

So shitty

but love the blacks and james who are gunna drive me around today.

thank god for friends ey!

x

Raise Your Glass

I need to stop
avoiding life
avoiding myself
avoiding change
avoiding growing up


I need to stop being so insecure
and childish
and grow the fuck up


ARGH!
Anger at myself
for my inability to express emtions unless i drink
and then they all torrent out.
all my upset
all my anger
all my fears
all hit me
at once
and i'm suddenly a mess


fuck off
x

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Cat & Mouse

Waiting for change
waiting to grow up
waiting to be happy

but hating change

sigh

i can't have everything in life
but here i am dreaming of it

the prefect man
the perfect house
the perfect family

good grades
bills paid
job i love

good friends
teakwondo
smiles

a girl can't have it all
but a girl can dream?
can't she?
x

Filling Silence

Another day at work
at least i like my job
well one of them anyway

i rekon i could always be a receptionist
although i'd get bored pretty soon
i've nearly learnt everything
so it's likely boredom is going to sit in soon anyway
:P

New piercings
family don't know yet
they are kinda cool
well i think so anyway
give me an edge
maybe i can finally get rid of this bloody - good girl- label i possess

not that i have anything against being well beahved, dignified, classy etc
but i'm sick and tired of people thinking i'm protected
precious
in need of help

fuck off

i'm a tough person
alot tougher than first thought
yeah, i have my down times
the times when i struggle
the times when i just want to give up and stop fighting
man, i have those times all the time

but i never give up
i never stop struggling
i just fight through
even when it hurts so bad
even when it looks like it'll never end, or improve
but now i'm fucking stonger than most people
i'm happier than the false 'emo's
and i'm real

as real as the sun in the sky, the wind in your hair and the dark of the night
i'm as real as the air you breath, the summer heat or the winter chill
everything about me is real
nothing is imagined
i am who i am
and whilst i hate me most the time
i still wouldn't change a thing
instead i'd fight to be me
i do fight to be me
and i'm proud
x

Wisdom, Justice & Love

sigh
someone is an idiot
knowing he reads this
and then posting something that seems like i'm upset with him


just so you know
i'm not
in fact
i fully agree and support your decision


it's actually all me


i hate feeling i'm alone
cut off from the world
wanting to run, hating my heart.
but hey
you gotta be alone to find someone


so i'll just chill out. .
enjoy life
spend some time with me for a change
not driving people around
doing 1,200 kms in 2 weeks.


spending my money on others drinks and maccas
spending my time with people and never sleeping
giving more than i should
and never recieveing back.


so don't stress boy
not everything in my life is about you
and there is nothing you could say or do to change me
still friends.
still happy
still me.


thats all one can ask for.
x
Now i'm just going to wait for the right one.
Your allowed a few misses, just as long as one day it all works out! :D

Without You

Loves how things work out

or more than often don't in her world.
but hey
what can ya do
get over another hurdle (that looks remarkably like every other fucking hurdle)
put yourself totally into what you love (hello unlimited Taekwondo)
and pull through


time to study i say
prove that nothing can stop me


fuck life
x