Take a Deep Breath.

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors

It's the morning of your very first day of a new life

of a new beginning

it's the chance you've been looking for

the opportunity to fight the mold you're living in,

and take a new step into the new future

I have a new future to look forward to (moving out of home)
hope for the future
new friends
new aspirations
and can pull away from the hated years
can pull away from the high school times
be the person i always wanted to be
if i'm careful to look before i fall
and to know who i'm supposed to be.

but i wont fall for the terrible moulds people place me in
im not supposed to be anyone.
anyone at all

except for me
and thats the only person i will be
me and forever more

so here i am on the edge of a new life
taking a leap of faith
forcing myself to throw away the heavy baggage on my thin shoulders
forcing myself to take my hair down look after myself.
do what i want and not what others want to be

me staring into the void of taekwondo training.
knowing i want to go back to where i was
before before life took over before this void of unhappiness and stress started eating away at me the time when it was my escape,
my happiness

had first training session this weekend.

smiled

had first shift where i didnt care

smiled

trained for 4th dan

smiled

spent time with BB

smiled.

All I need now is my Romeo....
But I need to remember that i'm not a princess,
and that this isn't a fairy tale.

I'm naieve, i don't have a chance
but i still think i love you
even though you're an ass
and i hate you.

you lost me
i am now floating in a void of depression
and unhappiness cos i cannot delete you from my life
short time
big effect
you effected me more than you should have
more than you deserved to be allowed to
fuck you.

but you ass
it's too late to catch me now...

but new people
new love
you don't know it yet
but i'm gunna find someone, someday thats going to actually treat me well
like i deserve
and maybe one day you'll notice me
and think of me
in the same way i think of you.

Hey! Can't have it all can we...