Something Else

I feel like i'm changing
growing older
becoming what people expect me to become.
but losing myself.
losing my identity
creating this thing, this person,
that looks like me
has my voice
but isn't me.


i don't know how to find myself again
and find whatever it is that identifies me as a person
instead i'm just drowning in the headlights of lifes judgement
never able to fulfil what people expect
always coming short
never being what people expect or what people want


all of me is just an image
just a surface
is there anything left inside?
or am i just supposed to travel through this mundane life without question.
waiting for the day when it all improves?
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