You'll Find Me

read a friends blog.
saw her happiness
felt like crap.

it's strange how someone else being so happy brings you down.
i sit here
and try to figure out what she has done that's so different to me
that has allowed her to achieve this happiness.

Maybe i should stop trying to be happy
maybe i just need to live life and happiness will come with it?

sigh. JA & C,
two different people
both used me in their own ways.
So did A & JK though.
I love being used & abused..
ha ha ha

stop trying
stop searching

and they'll find me