The Hardest Part

How is it that something can bring you so much pain but so much joy at the same time?
How is it that I can barely walk, barely breathe and my head is pumping, but at the same time i'm fighting back a smile?
How is it that I feel like bursting into tears cos the end seems to far,
Because my goal seems unobtainable.
How is it that I feel like I need to break every single bone in my body, and replace them in a different position. So that way I can stop making stupid mistakes.

It's my backbone
It creates me
You can't have me without it
but it brings me physical pain
mental pain
and emotional relaxation

I feel better when I am there
Better straight after
But pain too.

And pain during..

Sigh

I love Taekwondo too much